The last is abhinivesh: lust for life; the first is lack of awareness
“. The last has preciso be resolved preciso the first, the last has to be brought preciso the first. Now move backwards: you have lust for life, you cling to life. Why? Patanjali says, ‘Go backwards.’
Why do you cling preciso life? — because you are miserable. And the misery is created by dwais, repulsion. The misery is created by dwais — violence, jealousy, anger — repulsion. How can you live if you have such negative things around you? Through these negativities, wherever you look, life seems to be not worth living. Wherever you immagine through the negative, everything looks dark, dismal, per hell. Lust for life has preciso be resolved backwards, then you will find dwais. That’s why you have not been able onesto live. All the societies, cultures, they force many repulsions on you.
Why does this ego exist?
So Patanjali says, ‘Clinging puro life is the uppermost layer. Go deep; behind it you will find a layer of repulsion, dwais.’ But why are you repelled? Go deeper and you will find attachment. You are attracted towards per thing and if you are attracted, only then can you be repelled. If you are not attracted you cannot be repelled. Attraction can create verso repulsion; repulsion is the other pole of attraction. Go deeper — another layer you will find is asmuta, the feeling of ego, ‘I am.’ And this ‘I’ exists through attachment and repulsion. If rag, dwais, attraction and repulsion both fall, ‘I’ cannot stand there. ‘I’ will fall with it.
If you go downwards, backwards with clinging preciso life, behind it you will find the layer of repulsion
You, your ego, exists through your ideas of good and bad, ideas of love and hate, ideas of what is beautiful and what is ugly. Duality creates the ego. So behind the duality of rag and dwais, you will find the ego.